queenbeady #bloggersblogawards self acceptance


To say the last few weeks have been an ultimate high would be an incredible understatement. July started with a trip to Ibiza which I am still yet to finish blogging about, but the week was spent filled with quad biking trips, gorgeous views and beaches, paella and lots of San Miguel. It was also the holiday I felt brave enough to share a swimwear photo on my Instagram.  The response was just amazing. It was the first step to feeling like I was happy with who I was, and who I was becoming…

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You see, the back end of last year and earlier this year I was having a little bit of a crisis. There were things I hadn’t accepted growing up and things that had impacted me in more ways than I had quite realised.

There was also my career. Whilst I loved my old job, there was far too much stress that came my way with it and eventually,  it all got far too much for me.

My social anxiety became hyper induced. I’d panic more and more about social situations, worried people would hate me and that I’d feel way out of my depth. I found myself declining blogging events and going on “wild Netflix binges” – my home was where I felt safest. I eventually said yes to an event that I felt happy with but even then I had a mild panic attack (that my lovely friend Rhianna managed to help with. I don’t think I said thank you enough, so here’s another one. THANK YOU!) But in my head, despite a little setback I congratulated myself for doing it and getting out.

Then I had a failed driving test and then another one. Things were so up and down for me that I never felt 100% happy with anything and it just impacted my mind set in some really bad ways. I became a nightmare to be around.

Once we booked our holiday in June I knew that was the time I could look back and reflect on everything. It would give me that head space to really work on what could make me happier in life. It sounds cliché but I really had that lightbulb moment. It was now or never that I could make the changes.

I quit my old job and found another one.

I started taking Calms for my stress and anxiety and approached life in a more “care free” attitude.

I worked out my own style / tone of voice for my blog and Instagram so I felt more authentic. More me.

Three things. Those three small things contributed to me feeling the best I’ve felt in a long time.

I change my job and I instantly felt more valued and that I was more in control of my hours.  In turn this gave me more free time to enjoy creating new content for my blog and Instagram. And unbeleivably I’ve been rewarded for my hard work as I’m nominated in the #BloggersBlogAwards for Best Lifestyle Blog, Best Instagram and Best Use of Photography (you can vote for me here!) I’m incredibly humbled to even be up there once, let alone three times. I wrote a thread on Twitter that explained that once I started realising people were cheerleading me, I started to believe more in myself. So, a massive thank you to anyone who even considered me in their votes and also to the judges who felt I deserved to be shortlisted. Thank you a million times over. You’ve just helped me with another step to self acceptance.

And finally, by working on my anxiety and personality traits, to keep me more calm I finally passing my driving test which has opened up doors I never thought I knew about it. The self confidence that has come with passing this test has helped me grow as a person. It’s made me realise that I can achieve things when I approach things with a happier, clearer and more positive outlook. And not feel guilty about celebrating those achievements too.

I’ve often wallowed. Found it hard to get out of my slumps. But I’ve realised, if I want to live my best life I need to start accepting who I am. And, if there is something I’m not happy with. CHANGE IT. It’s become a little mantra of mine and boy, has it paid dividends.

So, my advice to you is if you are finding things hard, try and establish what it is that is making you feel that way and make those necessary changes to lead your happiest, most care-free, most positive life you can possibly live because I feel a million, billion, trillion times better for it.

This post is a thank you to everyone who has supported me and believed in me, even through times I haven’t been able to.

Thank you.

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23 comments so far.
  • This is such a lovely post and so touching to read. I’m so happy that you’re in such a positive place at the minute – you thoroughly deserve it. Here’s to many more adventures and exciting things that I’m positive are coming your way. Congrats again on being nominated THREE TIMES. You’re amazing xxx

    • Thank you so much Chelsea, it feels good to feel good. I cant actually believe it. I really can’t. I’m absolutely shocked!
      Bee xxx

  • Congratulations! I am SO chuffed for you that you’ve been nominated, I’m glad my vote was counted! 😉 You are so deserving!!! Alice xxx

    • Awww Alice, you are such a sweetheart. Thank you so much for all your support! You’re an angel. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
      Bee xxx

  • Glasses Girl

    I’m so proud of how far you’ve come Bee, I can’t even describe. You were missed one hell of a lot on the blogging scene when you were struggling and I’m so glad we have you back. You deserve every single success – you haven’t been ‘lucky’, you created it all for yourself and you have so much to be proud of. Lizi xxx

    • Oh Lizi, you really will have me in tears. I missed it too, but I just found it so so so hard. And I’m glad I let myself breathe and recover. I feel much more ready now. You are such an absolute doll and love your support, keep everything crossed for me.
      Lots of love, Bee xxx

  • Laura Emilia

    First of all, congratulations for all those nominations, they are very well deserved! Second of all, thanks for writing this post, it made me feel so much better (I was actually having a bit of an anxious moment so this came at the right time!) and reading this helped. xx

    Laura // Middle of Adventure

    • Hi Laura

      Thank you so much – it means the world to me.

      I’m so glad it helped you in some sort of way, just remember to keep chugging along and work out what you need to change to make yourself much happier 🙂

      Lots of love winging it’s way to you,
      Bee xxx

  • So happy to hear you’re feeling much happier. I know I’ve already said it on Twitter but big congratulations on your award nominations and also on passing your driving test. It’s so freeing to be able to go wherever you like 🙂 x

    Jenny | LuxeStyle

    • Oh Jenny, thank you so much. I’m still in shock but really trying to process it! The driving thing is massively helped my confidence.
      Bee xxx

  • I absolutely love this. Self acceptance is so freaking important – definitely easier said than done though! I would like to be more accepting of my body. I am getting there slowly though! xx

    Jessie | allthingsbeautiful-x

    • Oh Jessie, it has taken me so long to get to this point but I’m feeling so much better for it. We got this and we can do this and babe, I bet you look smoking in a bikini!
      Bee xxx

  • Great post! Ive felt like this for quiet some time and thanks to this post i think im going to reevaluate. Im a sucker for always worrying about what other people think. Im going to take on your mantra and have a quiet word with myself, i think i owe it to me.
    Thanks Bee!

    Kylie |

    • Oh Kylie, that’s so good to hear. It’s so simple, for me I needed to declutter my home, pass my driving test and say yes to the things I love and no to the things I don’t. Simple. I hope you find more happiness and self acceptance on your journey too.
      Lots of love, Bee xxx

  • Aww what a lovely post! I’m so so so glad you’re beginning to see just how damn awesome you are! So deserving of the Bloggers Blog Awards too; I’m keeping everything crossed for you (and voting for you :)) And massive congratulations on passing your test! The best drivers fail once or twice, believe me! x x

    • Oh Aimee, thank you so much. I’ve often always felt like I am a peg or two away from being good at what I do, I know we say that we don’t need the validation but sometimes, we really do and I think this has given me a royal kick up the arse to believe in myself a lot more. So thank you for being so supportive of me.
      Bee xxx

  • Fab post Bee and it’s so good to see you back to you, or even a better you. 🙂
    We are and always will be are own worst critic. But it’s how we deal with it that matters. Do wallow in it, rise above it. Show it who’s boss. You choose the life you lead. 🙂
    I love how much positivity you’ve shown, more so recently. You truly are a beautiful person inside and out and deserve all the award nominations you received!


    • Oh Caroline – I can’t tell you how nice it is to feel this way. Thank the lord for a job change, because I’m the happiest, most switched on I’ve ever been for a long while. It’s nice to be happy. You don’t realise just how ill/bad you’ve been until you really sit back and realise it.

      Hope to see you soon darling,
      Bee xxx

  • This is an awesome post! Full of so much happiness and excitement. I’m proud of you for making the changes you did, and look what’s happened since? What an awesome year you’ve had so far!

    • Oh Erin, thank you so much! That’s exactly how I feel right now. Excited for the future, excited for my purpose in life. Thank you.
      Bee xxx

  • I am so happy that you preserved and it you’re on the right track! You have grown and will only keep flourishing. Its hard to change but it proves your strength. Keep going! X

    • Oh Katie, thank you darling. Honestly, I feel so much better now. You have to really take a step back and acknowledge when you are either burnt out or ill. Thank the lord I did it in time.
      Bee xxx

  • Such a lovely ending to the post Bee!! I’m so proud of you for writing this and for going out and starting to change some of the things you’re not happy with xx



I'm Bee. 27 year old who is finally starting to understand herself. A Scorpio that's too nice to use that sting in her tail, regularly found searching for holidays or online shopping. Happiest when being fed, travelling & spending time with Mr C.






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